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(Here is Pt 2) Elderon was good at what they did, (They’re a god there is no one better). Nothing could quite compare to their dreams and aspirations, their mind, their body, their soul; not exactly untouched, but touched by magic and cunning they were. They were better than others for this and Elderon loved it. Loved everything about that, oh how bitter was jealousy, how mad was envy? Only they could tell. Only they could make the mistake of telling. Many, many mistakes could be made of telling, Elderon supposed this was one such mistake.

“No matter what you may think me, I do hold my tongue well. Well enough anyway.” Elderon told the guard outside their cell. He was dead, but that didn’t deter them from talking, for the soul (still here) was so fun to torment. Or at least that’s what they thought anyway.

“You know your king, he’s ah, how do I say this, ah yes! Mad, just mad as hell. Whether it’s the angry type mad, or the other type mad that must never be named; He’s just plain mad!” They gestured slightly with their hands while saying this, a defeated slump to their shoulders and their head against the wall. A deep scream, or maybe a sigh was wanting to fight its way out of their chest. Either way they told their lungs to keep it down, and to stop trying to make noises.

A bang was heard at the end of the corridor, a door shutting. The guards in the palace always walked silently and Elderon knew there were some coming their way, for there was no other prisoner around. They couldn’t bring themself to care or to even so much as get up from their position against the wall. Their lungs tried to make a noise again and since it wasn’t a scream this time Elderon let them let out the sigh that they thought the situation needed.

A pair of paws stopped at their cell and Elderon turned their head to look them in the eye. The guard avoided Elderon’s gaze of course, tricky fellow didn’t want to get his soul sucked out by the Eyes of Death.

“Our king requests your presence.” He swallowed, nervous. “He informs you that if you do not come, death shall be unleashed upon you and your rot left in this cave?” The guard phrased it as a question, as Elderon bared their teeth at the insolence the king showed to a god. They were terribly unprepared for Elderon, it sees for they let another guard come into the dungeons.

Elderon twitched their facial muscles into a quick smile and the air shifted. The guard fell to a heap on the floor, dead.

“I think perhaps that I might just turn this poor excuse for a cell into something else, somewhere else.” It seemed they were speaking to no one, (once again). “Let no one disturb me again.” Elderon spoke with authority, with meaning, with a kings authority, a Gods rule.

Death who had stood by their side and it was their magic who warmed Elderon’s veins; Elderon spoke to the souls at their command. Faltering but forever there, slumbering but ready to wake, Elderon had many to their command, many- to many.

Elderon’s beautiful shades of violet on their skin, blending into dark, dark shades of night sky then brown coca at the torso, leaving no room for the lighter things: The eternal sun, the harsh glacier snow white, no laughter and red passion to compliment them, they were more beautiful in the way of the dark, they, a wayward god, more powerful than most more dangerous than others. They were Elderon. And as they said, it was done.

After that, no guard dared step into the dungeon, all those that tried were dead in less than half a second and then transported straight to the lords bed for a nasty surprise.

Elderon was alone and that’s how they liked it. To bad it didn’t last


The God of Luck was perhaps the only one to ever get through their defenses but that was because Elderon took down their magic wards after they saw him stumble away from Death’s scythe. As he tripped over their new couch and landed perfectly normally in front of their newly refurbished kitchen, they knew that Fate and Magic were not far behind him, along with a whole cow of other gods.

“What. In hell’s name. Do you want?” Elderon grinded out. They would say they’re surprised but surprise was hard to come by nowadays. They was dissatisfied instead, though they refrained from complaining to God and whoever thought the universe was a good idea. After all, the last time they had complained God had lost their job, and that was a terrible terrible mistake Elderon swore never to repeat again.

“Well I would like to inform you that your luck has just changed, someone will be coming to see you shortly. Good luck packing.” Luck had made a deal once to warn Elderon whenever their luck was to be changed, this is why Elderon was so dissatisfied whenever Luck appeared.

They sighed into the morning mug of coffee in their hands and snapped their fingers. The sofa folded into itself which lead to the coffee table being flattened into nothing and then the bed slowly popping itself out of existence. The counters and cabinets followed and then the kitchen set itself on fire, content to turn into ash. The books flipped into thin air and in a jiff Elderon was set to get out of their old (new) home.

They made sure to finish their coffee first, it was a desert brew after all.

Once they hit sunlight, they called to them a whistle blast that made the surrounding castle almost turn colder than ice. The inhabitants were still asleep, being nocturnal after all, the cats were sure in their castles magic and its sentient defenses enough to not keep a day watch. Elderon was grateful for that, they liked the sure footed race and did not enjoy killing them, they looked forward to seeing the fur balls again.

A blur appeared in the distance, in a flash of steel and the smell of old blood a War was in front of them. A being made of old beliefs and war torn soldiers, made of weapons and despair, made of commanding voices and fallen soldiers, made of pockets of time and a bloodied deck of cards.

They got into the saddle of the War, a hulking figure that looked much like a dog with boar tusks and a vulture’s feathers. The War bounded away from the castle, in a beat that sounded like war drums.

The Forests and lakes blurred past, Wars were a few of the faster ways to travel for god’s, yet few like Elderon used them for they thought them to extreme, to sad for cirtian god. Yet Elderon saw them as reminders, they would remember, they would know, they would never forget.

Elderon needed to arrive at the Dawn Army by the time the screams in their head get loud enough for them to stop ignoring. So they made sure to get comfortable, the ride would be long after all, when Luck tells you time is up, then it’s best not to push it.

The Dawn Army was where Elderon usually prepared for the worst, they met with old friends and new there. They consulted the fated and the riddlers there. Many say that oracles reside there but anything Elderon had seen that closely resembled oracles were the scorpions, the kind that made you think shades were colors and colors shades.

There were only barren waste lands for days before the Dawn Army really shows up. Some say they come with the wind, Elderon says they do as they please. Yet what they please depends on whose loyalties they choose, and whether or not one has tried killing them when they were still alive.

The flowers of Mordan were passed by the War and red blossoms clung to Elderon as they rode on into the night.

Grounders

In grade 3, outside on the playground, I remember laughing when a kid bumped their head on a metal pole. I no longer laugh at such a thing because like some bad karma I bumped my head on that same pole on that same day even. I remember the day being bright and sunny, it was near the end of the year and I thought it would never be cold again. The playground was almost disgustingly hot, everyone had sweated enough to take off their jackets and we could see the wavy heat rising from the ground. My friends and I had taken over the entire playground playing grounders, kicking off anyone younger than us and shunning them to the swings.

That day I was It. My eyes were closed and my hands outstretched before me. Feeling around me I stumbled up steps hidden to me yet I knew where to go, knew where I wanted to go. All I could tell was my surroundings were quite any noise anyone made, I would hear. No, they were waiting for me to make the first move. There where hiding spots everywhere near me and the plastic around me was bound to be warm to the touch, the smell of the play ground was familiar and I had no idea where to go. I decided to draw someone out.

Facing where I knew to be the most popular hiding spot was, I made a face. I scrunched up my nose and drew up my lips into a snarl, I stuck my tongue out into the comparably cool outside. My cheeks started to redden as my face held, and nothing happened for at least several heartbeats, until quite a lot of giggling was heard.

“That’s not fair.” Lynn screamed almost in excitement, more in good humor, as I headed to where I heard them. My body moving fast regardless of my closed eyelids and the obsticals in my way.

“Ryan, move!”

“I got here first, you move!”

“Oh no! Emily, move!” Even more shuffling was heard as I headed to the small rock climbing wall and reaching out, I tried my hardest to tag them. But when I couldn’t, I moved quickly. Reaching over for someplace to grab, I hauled my body to where I thought they were, hoping to touch someone at least. I shuffled over and swung blindly, more than once, yet not tagging anybody. With disappointment, I knew I was still It.

“Go away Austin, this is my hiding spot!” I heard Emily stage-whisper from somewhere far to my right. I had to hurry, I thought, before they moved elsewhere, gathering my waning confidence I started to swing back to where I heard them, my hands tightening around the pole before, my skin shifting, before I let go.

I never reached them, my foot slipping off the edge, my finger had already let go of the low wall and The metal bar in front of me rushed up to my head without me knowing as my eyes were still closed. My momentum carried my head to the metal bar and my face landed with a solid thunk.

I realied backwards and fell, my eyes opening up to see the sky as the ground rushed up to meet me. I lay there stunned and staring at the equipment before me, the faces of children stared back, an adult was rushing toward me and everyone was coming to see if I was okay. I slowly got up, knowing I had a funny stunned face on, then promptly burst into tears.

The teacher reassured me but the damage was done, the kids were told not to play grounders and I had to talk a trip the nurses office, just in case. The mood of the day had gone down to zero and everyone could feel it, I was quite the whole way and I knew my teacher was worried, I didn’t come out for the rest of recess. After that day I never laughed when someone hit they’re head on any pole, no matter how funny it turns out to be.

Letting Go

https://www.goodreads.com/book/show/35105293-gate-of-airTiredness seeped into my bones, right into the metal like rust, and Holy Fuck did I want to sleep, just wanted to close my eyes, they were so heavy. It wasn’t good to though. Not now, not when I was so close, not when I could very well make it.

Not when I could feel it like the screams right behind my teeth, clamoring to come out. When all odds were against me, I had to keep going. When I wanted to lay down and give my self over, when I just wanted to close my eyes and pretend that when I go to sleep I won’t ever get up again.

I couldn’t stop, when it wasn’t the end yet, and it wasn’t going to be for a long while. No matter the amount of tired I was, no matter the metal in my bones burning down to dust and grime. No matter my blood screaming at me to stop, just stop.

It wasn’t the end yet.

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(Here is Pt 2 and Pt 4 When the blood moon clouded the night Elderon finally made their way back toward the War. Elderon’s good mood from friends, family and drink was releasing itself slowly into the night. Their world weary shoulders worming themselves onto them once again.

Elderon’s friends had everything they ever need or ever wanted from them, as their god Elderon made sure of such things, that their afterlife be whatever they want, whatever they desire. Most didn’t know about that when Elderon became their god. When Elderon joined their quest.    

As Elderon approached the War, (napping where they let it), they saw two feet sticking out from under it’s belly. The feet had pointed shoes on, which Elderon thought impractical when it came to things like traversing over time, yet few did that now a days. As strange as the shoes were, the owner was stranger still; for as Elderon leisurely approached the War they heard strange bargains being made.

“Act now and you can have another one free, a great buy isn’t it? Buy one get one free, yes? Well, what do you say? They’re even on sale! A whole fifty percent off! Compared to other stores this is the best deal you can get!”  Elderon had found something resembling a sales man stuck under their War, the poor soul seemed to have gone mad with the business fumes and the scent of gold in others pockets.

They looked to see the sales man’s head poking out the other side of the Wars torso and it just seemed to never shut up; the mouth moving and moving. The man with brown eyes kept talking about sales and his numerous wares, (though there was nothing around for miles, much less a cart), and the War seemed to be sleeping on him but Elderon knew they were keeping half an eye on the fellow beneath them.

“Can I help you?” Elderon asked the man, intrigued by him and his brand of crazy he carried like a medal. That is to say nobody ever wanted to carry a medal and metals were taken off after one day of wearing them around, the novelty of metals disintegrated fast. And yet only the dweebs and showoffs made sure to wear them daily or whenever they thought the surrounding people needed to be reminded of some type of superiority. That did not dissuade the fact that the novelty of metals disintegrated fast, unless it was quite the cool metal that people were actually interested in. This was not a cool metal, yet this guy was wearing it as if it was. (What a dweeb) 

Either way the guy was insane; insane as a hat you couldn’t take off. Which explains what comes out of his mouth next.

“The messenger of Shamballa is dead. Get seven percent off on caskets now.” That just seemed like something insane people would say. Everyone knows after all that the messenger of Shamballa is as alive as it gets. Especially since he started that party, no one dies at a good party after all. And some people say said party has been going on for millennia, Elderon knew that that could actually be the case because it did start a millennia ago (they would know, they were invited a millennia ago). Either way the messenger of Shamballa was not dead and seven percent off was an utterly stupid deal.

Elderon just sighed at the man, he was grinning at them and occasionally muttering to himself. They started to whistle and the War got off the man and traveled to a different spot to nap. The man laughed and got up.

“My many thanks God of heroes,” He said, taking a bow that was low enough for him to almost touch the floor, his hands coming around his torso in an almost elegant way, as he straightened up though; well Elderon saw it coming of course, but, was a bit to shocked to get out of the way.

As the man straightened up he brought his hand up as well in a truly magnificent bitch slap, the back of his hand connected with Elderon’s cheek and Elderon’s head whipped the to the left, a red mark already forming, surprise written all over their face.

The man must be truly insane to bitch slap a god, but it was Elderon so, perhaps not.

“The hell was that for?!” Elderon was outraged but also shocked enough to want to know the man’s answer before they vaporized him.

“Well it seems like you needed it.”

That just made them more angry, they were already thinking up more creative ways for the man to die than just vaporization. “I don’t know what the hell you’re on about. I didn’t fucking need that.”

“Well you will! After all for what is to come; well it’s not gonna be pretty.”  He was still smiling and for normal mortals it would start to be unnerving. For Elderon it was just getting annoying, especially when he conjured a walking stick that put him to his full height, a whole three inches higher than Elderon (which was, of course, especially annoying).     

“What is to come? You presume to know?” Elderon was a little more careful with him now that he had proved himself insane and partly magic, which was like giving a sword to a thoughtless man, and besides no one but the god of insanity knew what insane people were going to do (or did he?).

“Oh, I do know, I am Lian after all, the traveling salesman and part time prophecies.” He tipped his head at Elderon, an invisible hat seemed to cover his hair at once, making it seem as if he was bald. Elderon was still weary of the man, no matter how ridiculous he was starting to look, he did after all seem to have leopard print tights on, those were just plain offensive in at least ten different nations just this side of the Free.

“You mean an oracle?” They asked him, choosing to also ignore the eye searing tie dye tutu they had on.

“That’s not what it’s going to be called in a few years.” His smile was just getting creepier by the second, Lian’s eyes were starting to glow as well, a red that usually demons liked to wear. Elderon was started to get the suspicious feeling that Lian wasn’t just an oracle but one that was corrupted by demon influences, possibly one that started out demon.

“A few years huh?” Elderon asked, Lian seemed to want to talk after all and Elderon thought they had time.

“Oh yes, quite the place Free will be in a few years, quite the people will run it in a few years, quite the chaos in a few years. Don’t worry, Elderon god of heroes, you won’t have to wait long for your perfect failure. One that will span centuries.”

Elderon went cold at Lian’s words. The wind started to whistle, they did not like those that didn’t keep their mouth shut. Elderon may talk at times, but the future, well there was a reason oracles talked in riddles.       

The demon oracle’s neck snapped, a resounding crack echoed around the plains, the blood moon glowed upon them, making the area look as if everything had a bit of a red hue to it. With the neck at an awkward angle Lian started to laugh, it would be chilling to some, Elderon had seen worse.

The wind whipped about them and Death had appeared once again at Elderon’s side, they both watched as Lian was consumed by something unseen, something almost larger than life, down and down Lian seemed to spiral, it almost gave Elderon vertigo watching him he began to speak.

A quest doomed to fail

Trial by tooth and nail

A top brought up by titans

Brought low by greed

Heed as the watcher warns

Brought low by deeds”

The demon prophecy chilled Elderon to the bone, they were spooked now. Prophecies like that hadn’t been said since the dawn of Free, since the people warred for years and years to come. Prophecies, the blood of quests called to Elderon more than a prayer from any hero could. And this prophecy called to a part of Elderon best left buried, best for the world of Free and best for all those worlds that come before it.

Lian left smoke and mercury behind him, disappearing after the last verse. The air smelled rancid, almost as if deer were rotting somewhere nearby. Death was an almost friendly presence by Elderon’s side, he seemed spooked like Elderon, but he was probably excited, or perhaps he felt nothing at all. It was hard to tell in any case.

“It seems we have to do something about that.” Elderon said, gesturing vaguely toward the general area of what happened.

“Good luck with that.” Death told them after an appropriate pause for the general destruction of the area. They disappeared right after.

“Typical.” Elderon muttered to themselves, before whistling to call their War over. They had work to do.

Writers Seminar- R.M Drake

Emulation of the poem Next Time

Life is easier on the edge,
People like you live in the center.
A center of pain and love
But what is love without pain?
What is living without rain?
Can there be one without the other?

A life that leads to death is all we have left
It’s where we’ll all end without a doubt
Deny it all you want but it’s where you’ll go
With life slipping through your fingers
Dripping down the drain ending with
A familiar embrace a place we all knew we’d go

With so much time left
But not enough time at all
What will we do, what will we try
Will it ever be enough?
To fill the gaping hole
What do we do?
What will we do?

So much time left, but in no time at all
The clocks will stop
The heart will not matter
The time will not matter
Does it matter?

Maybe I don’t know
Maybe I don’t realize how life works
How does death work, is that all there is to it?
What will happen if it doesn’t work anymore?
What will happen if
Well now I could go on forever with what ifs
Does it really matter, do we really understand life at all?
Or are we just asking the wrong questions?

At the center we have our own pain
Our own love
We create what we want
We love how we wish
We define our beginnings and our ends

At the center we have our own love
Our own pain
We take what we wish
We do not care
why should we
when they do not either

We do what we wish for how can we do anything else
Than what we were taught
In the center we have our own meanings
Our own structures
Our own rules

In the edge where it is easier
Easier to let go
Easier to head the whispers
to listen to the cries and pleas
Of pain
Of love
It’s so much easier to let go than to hold on
To what we want

What we want everyone else does as well
And we can’t let go
Because then we will have nothing left
Nothing of our own
Nothing to hold onto

Just let go
It’ll be so much easier

But easier is so much more harder
How could you tell us to let go when
All we want is to hold on?

What R.M Drake means to me

His writing makes people think more about themselves, his writing is something people relate to. His writing which has a bit of a dark quality to it is still relatable and people make their own conclusions out of it.

-“The more I write things about myself the more that people relate to it,” he says. “At least on social media, people want to expose how they’re feeling and things they’re going through and that’s what my writing does. It’s self-exploration and self-therapy.”

R.M Drakes writing is a lot about love and death and yourself. I find the yourself part interesting because not many have write about yourself it’s more about others what others make you feel, but he writes about himself

-because that’s how it happens… one day, I’ll snap out of it, I’ll walk out the door and leave you. and what’s sad about that is, how soon after, you’ll wake up and it’ll be too late. you’ll regret everything you didn’t do to make me stay. R.m. drake